You take your perceived judgments of others to be who YOU are.
What do "they" see without "their" judgments of you?
Stop pretending that they are judging you at all.
There is nothing spiritual about finding happiness (or seeking it). It's just a spiritual experience when you find True Happiness.
Spend some quiet time by yourself when you get a chance to get in tune again with silence.
We keep coming back to the old way of doing things. We've been taught to communicate that way. And we rejoin people where they are, pretending to be something we're not.
Meet yourself in another.
Be still. Don't follow thoughts. Listen. Breath. Smile.
Poof - you're awake :)
Am I a spy?
This is a highly intelligent body. It's been keeping me alive for years without me.